It’s only 6am! I woke up in a guest house in Beijing this morning around 4am. As I fought to stay awake last night after the 13 hour flight, I was toast by 7:30pm.
This trip is different than any other I have taken in the past. It was the 1st time I planned an entire trip with the help of a local guide…. for me and 3 of my friends.
Rewind 8 months, I was with 4 of my friends in the Cayman Islands. While we were there, my friend discovered she was being relocated to Hong Kong. We made a pact right then and there to come visit her. Being who I am, I can’t just make a trip to one city… so I arranged an 8 day power tour through different parts of China.
This past year was a challenging one. I am still at the job I feel in love with. A few months back we had some new management changes. I am still getting adjusted and it really hasn’t been the same. As I have made such a difference in the division I started, I want to see it through to become the power business I envisioned when I first started. I fortunately and unfortunately have dedicated way too much time and effort into this position. It has become a love / hate relationship. As we have expanded, I hope to take some time back for myself.
On a personal front, not much has changed since my time in India. I almost forgot what I shared and didn’t share in my blog last year. I fell madly in love with a man who asked me to marry him. It was the 1st time in years that I felt that I could spend the rest of my life with this person. To say the least, the proposal wasn’t real. It was a spontaneous outburst. Silly me. Silly me. He turned out to be another commitment phobe and unfortunately, my friends doubted his overall life sincerity. We all started looking deeper into his stories and doubted everything he ever told me about himself. I thought CIA or FBI the way he spoke about / or should I say didn’t speak about his role. Who talks about marriage anyway to get level 1 clearance?
Moving on, I of course heard from my Mr. Big. He asked me to see him in April. He said he was ready this time and he would make it up to me (as for years he was full of absolute Bullshit!). I have known Mr. Big for 6 years. He has broken my heart so many times it became a joke. Anyhow, he didn’t follow through – no surprise following our 1st meet and greet in almost a year. But around my birthday he did start making more of an effort. Within a few months, the chemistry had never been so magical. I met some of his friends and we even spoke about having babies together. It all came from his mouth – whether I would want children with him. He asked if we can have twins as they run in his family. OK, OK… I actually started opening up to these ideas and found myself happy thinking about it. To say the least it was a blast… our 6 month expiration expired and he freaked out, yelled at me and told me via text he can’t do it. He apologized 17 times as he felt terrible. I decided to block him… permanently. Enough is enough. As a hopeless romantic, I have to throw in the towel. There comes a time (which should have been over 3 years ago), that you have to let people go that will do nothing but continue to hurt you because you let them.
The biggest relationship of this year was with food. Between working 10-14 hour days, not making ‘me’ time and wasting another 6 months on a total tool (who by the way convinced me he loved my new body and not to change a thing), I gained 25 pounds. It is absolutely gross.
The good stuff… my dog, Harvey is still the love of my life. He is one of the best and sweetest creatures I have ever come across in my entire life. I sold my apartment! After 8 years, it was time for change and for me to get out of my 500 square foot studio. I bought a new apartment not too far away. It is under complete renovation. I hired a contractor who probably wants to kill me by now – he is a friend from college. I hope to move into my new home by mid-January. My new place is in a pre-war building, has a window in the kitchen and the bathroom. Also, I have a fireplace!! I am so excited to start this new chapter.
We are starting our China tour in 2 hours. I am hoping this adventure re-energizes me as my passion for anything but work needs to change gears. I am lucky to be surrounded by warm and wonderful souls this week! Let’s hope we don’t kill each other and enjoy each day.